LONG TIME DEAD

Searching for perfection in this life
But it never does materialize
So many hours have been wasted
Making life unnecessarily complicated

But this stubborn heart of mine
Won't listen, won't tow in line
I'm done fighting its crazy desires
I'll succumb to the inevitable fires

I thought it would totally enthrall
But, desire has been my downfall
Can't complain, for it's my fault
As I give in to the raucous tumult

Now I'm dumb, deaf and blind
On the precipice of losing my mind
But I can't turn back now
To the addiction, I can't say ciao

I'll ride the rollercoaster till the end
But don't follow in my footsteps, friend
For, despite its sparkle and allure
You'll forever be desiring more

You'll be reduced to being a slave
No peace at all; just crave after crave
And then you're lost in ignorance
With no time for repentance

And then, it's too late to go back
You're miles off the righteous track
Now lying alone in the hospital bed
I realise I was already a long time dead

By
Vampire

DILEMA

Sebaris kata datang padaku
Bahwa dirimu telah hadir walau masih kaku

Kemudian luka di masa lalu
Kembali menjalar bertambah biru

Akankah kunikmati sayatan itu?
Atau kutendang saja rasa pedih yang menggerogoti sisa sisa tawaku

Sungguh
Aku hanya mau hidup

By balebila

GOOD LUCK

I guess it's the time for a bird to leave it's cage and fly to the horizon.
The wings will spread wider and longer flapping under the warmth of morning light.

I guess it's the time for a bird to seek for happiness.
I wave my hand down here in loneliness.

Don't hesitate to soar yourself up
Your little goodbye was pretty enough

I admit I have nothing to complete your life

The bird wants freedom
No more cage  and life of boredom

Then cut  that chain off your feet
Let yourself go and choose your own seat

Just forget how we first met.
Your future is more important, I bet

I'll try not to cry  I won't  shed a tear
I will pray I always remember you near

Though it's difficult to hide my sad look
As I read again our sweet diary book

By balebila

ASHES OF IDIOCY

This is the final curtain
I've been shot by Satan
There's no going back now
This is my final bow

Nothing more to say
I'm going far away
To another dimension
Free of hurt and tension

My lips on the poisoned chalice
My heart free of malice
I sink into dark oblivion
Can't undo what the devil's done

I'm the hapless fool
Who was Satan's tool
Rushing forth for ecstacy
But left in ashes of idiocy

Run, run, gotta run
Full speed into the sun
Let my body explode
As I reach my final abode

No hate, no regrets
No sunrise nor sunsets
Just silent darkness
And blank emptiness

By
Vampire

THESE SCARS OF MINE

As I caress these scars of mine
I hope that you're feeling fine
You shot me through my heart
But I didn't easily fall apart

When you pushed me and I fell
You thought I had gone to hell
But I somehow conquered gravity
And flew to heights of ecstasy

I let go of all the pain and hate
I surrendered to life and fate
I forgive you for all you said
How you wished to see me dead

I'm now totally at peace
I can go through life with ease
I've learnt to forgive my enemies
I've stopped my killing sprees

I was partially guilty, too
I shouldn't have neglected you
But let's leave the bad in the past
And have a truce that can last

I'm done killing myself constantly
I'm done harming myself perpetually
I'm done crying myself to sleep
I'm done watching my loved ones weep

And I'll wear these scars with joy
But don't think it's part of a sick ploy
I wanna remember from whence I came
So I don't go back to being the same

By
Vampire

I GOTTA

I venture the streets like a homeless man
I'm the rebel without a cause or plan
I let the world pass by and stare
Because I'm dead and so don't care

For now I accept what's on my plate
Call it destiny, providence or fate
I gotta find from within, a will to fight
To find my feet n come out into the light

Every day till the last, will be a fight
Just gotta figure out the wrong from right
Knock on new doors, look ahead
Bury the past, for it's truly dead

I gotta carve out a new reality
I gotta reinvent my identity
I gotta abandon the shadows
I gotta deflect the cruel blows

I gotta make myself the no.1 priority
I gotta start loving unconditionally
I gotta start achieving my potential
I gotta ignore the nonsensical

Life's too short to stay stuck in a hole
I gotta take back all of the control
It may be hard, but I gotta break the mould
Can't go back to being the man of old

By
Vampire

LOST WITHOUT YOU

I'm haunted by your memory
In everything I do and see
That's why I love walking in the rain
Nobody can see my tears of pain

No one knows of my heartache
Losing you made me break
There's no medicine or remedy
I will suffer for the rest of eternity

With every breath, I whisper your name
But it doesn't feel right, doesn't feel the same
With every thought, I search for thee
But you're always a fading memory

They tried giving pills to dull the pain
Tried to wipe the memories in my brain
I let them think I've gone insane
As they looked upon me with disdain

They'd need a medical breakthrough
To begin to detect my love for you
For, it races through my blood
Reminiscent of Noah's flood

Though I surf upon this flood of love
It's just not nearly good enough
I need a time-machine desperately
To relive the days you were next to me

Your caresses and tender touch
Everything about you I miss so much
And I'm not ashamed to say it's true
I'm completely lost without you

By
Vampire

GONE

Once upon a time under a lazy moon
A poem was completed soon

The poem was about a heart
Which had been cut into two parts
One was dumb while the other smart
Bad and good could be seen from the start

You gave me many words to declare
This heart got so numb I couldn't bear
Say this
Say that
O, la la
Could you please not to swear?

I need  some peace
In your lullaby kiss

 I got none
 I'm gone

By balebila

FADING AWAY

Slowly but sure the light is fading
Slowly but sure I see no more shadows of presenting

Everyone's gone
Im typing alone

To the wall of echoing room I get my words back
I guess it's the sign of farewell act

No more stars at night
No more sparkles in the light
No more smile, joke and fight

I hope that everything is allright.

By balebila

BETRAYAL

I can't begin to explain
The nature of my pain
You left me for dead
You shoulda shot me instead

Can't get over this betrayal
I'm in constant denial
It feels like a dream gone bad
As I hang on to what we had

You tore my soul right out
You've killed me, no doubt
I'm like a spirit, lost and dead
With a heart made of lead

I'm gonna take a deeper dive
I'm totally tired of being alive
I pray that karma teaches you
Not to treat girls as you do

By
Vampire

DARKNESS

You made me weep incessantly
I cried so much, it cost me dearly

My salty tears of unimaginable hurt
Flooding the parched ground of dirt

My hopes and aspirations drowned
As i try to bury myself six feet in the ground

Now upon my every breath
I whisper the name of the angel of death

I have no desire to live happily
You crushed me so violently

I'm like a zombie from The Walking Dead
No memories remain in my head

I'm an empty shell of desolation and despair
Totally broken; no hope of a lasting repair

I feel life slowly slipping away from me
As I sink into a world of darkness for eternity

By
Vampire

WOUNDS OF DECEPTION

The wounds of deception and treachery
Killed off her soul completely

Darkness surrounded her perpetually
As she was confined to endless misery

Tears streaming down her face
As she mentally prepares for Outer Space

Her heart broken and savagely abused
Leaving her shell-shocked and bemused

Her trust has all but evaporated
Leaving her feeling shallow and deflated

She'll never ever love again
As she hides her tears in the rain

Love hurt her more than she knew
Now she'll forever refuse to say "I Do"

By
Vampire

WAKTU

Waktu...
Taklukkan aku!
Patahkan persendianku!
Bekukan aku hingga tak bersuhu!
Aku rebah ditebas rindu yang menderu.

Pun, aku latah menguntai apa-apa.
Gila meredam gelora asa yang membara.
Getir membakar potret kenangan refleksi masa.

Waktu...
Tendang aku dari masa lalu yang terus membabat.
Selamatkan aku dari kemelut yang terus menyayat.
Lelah aku, meretas ulang sulaman luka yang sentiasa mengabdi.
Putus asa, bak mencari daun kering yang berguguran di musim semi yang dijamuri _lili_.

Waktu...
Tarik aku dari penjara masa.
Bebaskan aku dari jeruji derita.
Tuntun aku menjinakkan rimba aksara.
Yang terus menggerogot _bola ajaib_ tanpa suara.

Waktu ialah aku.

By sopi nurisa

DEPTH OF HELL

I'm falling down a deep abyss
Can't be saved by your tender kiss
Drowning in waves of death
Can't be saved by your breath

I'm fighting imaginary foes
Don't wanna add to your woes
Embracing the warmth of hell
Ignoring your passionate yell

The venom is now a part of me
Consuming me fully eventually
Disappearing forever without a trace
Till even I forget my own face

By
Vampire

A ROOM WITH NO WALL

There's no way I can erase all
The description of the nature
A minute determines a smile
The pieces of the sweetest places
I nurture my feeling gradually
The lovely chaser is gone
I hope I knew what it was
Pages of note that stops my steps
Hides my eyes away
At the ground, I've got the silver lock and key
The wind hits my feet
I'm running
Coz I'm catching,
Poems dragged me to witness
A room with no wall

Banda Aceh, Feb 9th 2018

By: Annisa

I AM AWAY

And this empty soul
Has lost the sun and the moon
I am sitting on the corner desperately
The rainy tears is shedding the broken mind

Dear sadness, oh madness
Why am I deserving the dark of the loneliness
And the grief of my life
Is a poem of my diary

The shadow of death
Haunting me day by day
The rainbow has no colour
As the hope is dying

Go away and I am away
The dead piano sings beautifully
Wish the eyes can talk more
Let the angel lift your burden
And end the broken hope

By Fernanz

SHE'S FIGHTING THE THOUGHT'S WAR

She's into the moments she had with her bestie,
But, they say past isn't a place for residence,
She hopes she will disappear,
But, truly, she wanna be found,
But they say worrying is useless, action isn't,
They say the key of success is found In the daily routine,
Then she hates herself when she keeps wasting time again and again

By Annisa

I LET YOU GO

For the umpteenth time, you shattered me into pieces

For the umpteenth time, too, I accepted your apologies

You used to fix my broken heart

But, you turned out to be the monster of my heart

You used to make me feel as if I was the only princess

But, who's the girl in the park that gave you kisses?!

 I used to think that it would be hard to let go of you

But it's even harder to hold on to you who doesn't realize my value

I've made up my mind...

I resentfully accept that you're no longer mine...

I'm still here trying to cheer up by telling myself:

 "It's not your loss! It's his!"...

By

Lina

I WANNA GO HOME WITH YOU

Sitting alone on a quiet shore, 

I prayed that someone going to pick me home. 

Then I saw many ships coming from very far oceans. 

They were great ships, luxury things to sail with. 

One of them was yours, 

coz I could hear from its sound which was like songs being sung in my dreams, 

coz I could see from lovely poetic words written neatly over the ship’s body.

The captains then one by one came out the ships and asked me to go home with them.

I saw their bating eyes, teasing smiles, and gentle moves, confirming me they were real.

But I couldn’t see you.

I run to your ship but I saw no one.

I just found your steady steering-wheel, your strong anchors, your colorful glittery flags and your romantic tunes from the files.

I didn’t see you. 

Where are you? why it’s so hard to see you?

Just to have a quick glance at your eyes seems like I have to walk on unending path.

Don't you know that only with you I want to go home? 

That only with you I want to sail the ocean, to reach peaceful land we dreamed of?

Since you didn’t come, I walked back to the shore.

Sitting alone, weeping eyes, wishing to the star… 

Dear Prince, I wanna go home...

with you

*by balebila*

LONELINESS

I'm in a black hole

Consumed by sadness

I have no soul

I only see darkness

All the rainbows

And the stars

Can't undo the blows

Nor erase the scars

Floating aimlessly

In the vastness of life

Won't the Reaper take me

To end my plight?

Maybe it's in my DNA

Or destiny's cruel ploy

I'm a statue of clay

Being handled like a toy

No light at the end of the tunnel 

I only see unending darkness 

Trapped by a cursed spell

Gotta accept my loneliness

By

Vampire